lately i've been thinking.. thinking about my past, that had lots n lots of drama! from backstabbing bitches, the hardcore relations and breakups, to the part where my life was threatened. all those things where u might think
only happens in movies and dramas, well, it's not only an on-screen scenario for me. u might want to think twice about that now, eh?
and for some who knew, those were some (not the main ones, maybe) of the reasons i'm still here in japan. being in a life "drama" over and over (AND over) again sure tires me. i didn't know how much of that can i take. hence, the decision at the very last minute was made -- i shall stay in japan. and since then, i, who
never cut anyone out of my life, thought that it would be best to do so. though that was the most drastic decision ever, that i have to make -- but i did. not using internet that much, not to mention my cell, or any other networks. felt like entering into a new world except, it's not literally
new.
more than a year had past since the last "drama". now that i think about it, my life now has less of it (
drama), which is good, but sometimes i just miss the times where i had all those fun back then. don't get me wrong, i still have fun with new friends now.. but, it's just different somehow. maybe i'm no superstar back home, but still i'm used to be in the spotlight. and though sometimes i do agree that life without the spotlight is so much better, but i just don't agree the part where it has to be well... different.
inside. and sometimes that makes me wonder, do i regret not going back and have a life that i can say i
love? hmm.. maybe a lil bit, but come to think of it, i
don't regret cutting some, or
most people from my past, at all.
that's one thing for sure.
and with all the great new people, and only the best from the past who still remains around me, i shall learn to love my (new) life, once again. :)
