is it bcos i took yeaaaaaaars to forget about one past, but when i finally forget about it, and think only about the present, the present turns out to be just as same as the past? ah, i don't know what i'm rambling about anymore. or maybe i just refuse to forget, cos then it would look like it didn't mean anything. cos it did. mean something. everything, then. the past should look fake now, but in fact, to me, the present does...