// walking down the memory lane...
i guess there
are certain things in life where there's nothing we can do to change it. no matter how hard we've tried. and i mean HARD. like, the people that we've accounted with as we walk along the path we called life.
had nothing much to do today after my presentation for today's seminar. well, actually there are lots of things to be done. but knowing me, i just skipped all the work part and go straight to the good part -- tho there's
none, literally. (me sitting in front of this pc writing this, somehow confirms that). so doing what i do best -- sitting around surfing the net, i came across pictures of someones that i used to called
buddies. and looking at their pictures, i knew that we soooo need to do lots of catching up. but there's this weird wall that's holding me back. and i realized that we've been growing apart -- well, not that it happened recently. so i couldn't help but wonder,
what happened to us?i always thought that good friends, well, buddies, especially, will get thru thick and thin together. at least maybe that's what i
wanted to think. seeing the latest pictures of them brought me back to the good old days, where we were still telling each other not just gossips, but also something that we couldn't just bare on our own. this is when the phrase
"good friends always have each other's back" was in perfect use. but something along the path made us grew apart, regardless of what, or who causes it, i always thought that things will get back to normal. coz the naked truth is, we're friends, right? we'll get thru this.
yea, that's what i thought too. but i guess sometimes things aren't getting to the happy ending that we wanted, something that i still couldn't figured out
why until now. but what hurts the most was, when i know that i've tried my best to patch up the good things that all of us had in the past, and the other was just... well, how can u put this --
stop trying. or maybe didn't even try at all.
it's awkward, this human race. there are billions of people on the planet. billions! with billions of characters. but we could still find that someone -- a few of someones, who can maybe share our hobbies, our secrets, hell who can even share our drawers! and most of that starts with strangers, don't u think? so why can't just strangers who've become so-called
"buddies" just find a way to reconcile (if that word fits) the friendship that they had all these years?
sometimes i do miss the times we hang out together, having a slumber party, or even times we were just being stupid. i would be lying if i said those times didn't even paying my mind a visit. but it's been long...
too long, maybe, for my heart to be still lighting up the hope that one day everything's gonna be back to the way they were, or better. coz when u leave something
this long, people tend to forget bout it. and no effort is made. so maybe i should stop too.
God, i do miss the times and the friends i've made since kindergarten (or maybe before that) until where i am standing (i mean
sitting) now. hey, don't get me wrong. i'm thankful with the people i have around me now, too. they've been great. but i just hate the fact that i have to leave the past to go to the future. coz not
every past needs to be left. definitely not
friends. well, that's for me, at least. so to the people i once close with, i just hope that i would not be forgotten as i won't be forgetting the times we spent, once upon a time.
p/s: ok, does this sound like a speech of someone who is dying?? :p
