do you still remember, when we were a kid, we were always asked this question: what do u want to be when u grow up? and i still remember mine --
a doctor. hehe. and, that answer continues until i was urm... old enuff to think straight..
sometimes. lol.
do u know why u wanted to be what u want to be? i didn't even know why i wanted to be a doctor. now that i come to think of it, maybe i watched too much tv, as the japanese would say,
terebi-ko (tv kid). haha. i guess by watching too much ER, made me think that it's so cool to be one. *giggles* but now, having a friend who's actually a doctor, she told me that it's actually good that i didn't end up being one, coz according to her, a doctor has no life! hehe. don't know how much truth there is though.. coz that's her opinion, right? everyone has their own. but, ah, whatever. move alongggg....
then, when i got a scholarship offer to further my studies in japan, at first, i have to say, i was confused. whether to accept it or not. coz i was in matrix, taking pure science, still in the hopes of becoming a doctor at that time, not an engineer. (
chop, bukak puasa jap..) hehe. after giving it a thought, and think that it's a once in a lifetime opportunity, i went for it. i know some would say that's too bad, coz many would agree that it's better to follow your dreams, but, since i wasn't sure if medical was my true passion (though for half of my living life i said i wanted to be one, hehe), i said, why don't go for it? it wouldn't hurt to try. ah, there's where i was wrong -- it
did hurt! especially in my lab. hahaha. but, that's another story.
having no interest in engineering but still doing it anyways, made me struggle a little, i must say... and so, i found new things that i love to do, (which i've only done a bit of it when i was back home, and didn't think that i would love doing it) -- which is singing and dancing! ♥
since the intention of becoming an engineer was scratched from the start (ok, not actually
right from the start, but maybe after the 3rd year..), i had no idea of what to do after my graduation! (note: still don't. maybe.) all i know was, i want to work at the tv company, or anything that has to do with me (
the words start to fade at this point :p)
meeting all those hot guys... bla, bla, bla... ok, stop. that's not it. at least not
all of it. hahaha.
getting my first job in japan at the tv commercial production was great, except for my department boss, that is. but then, since it's kagoshima, and since it's a small company, i couldn't get the working visa in time (and they are
kedekut enuff not to give it to me now), had me left to find a new job. so here i am, being an english teacher to the junior high school students, and some kids, for the time being. coz to tell u the truth, i don't think i'm suit to be a teacher. not for long. *sigh*
to those people who are able to do the things u love, i do envy u. really. i was once told that doing something that u don't like, is what reality, or working world is all about. yes, i
do know that.
now. though i might not have a permanent statement of what i'd like to be now, i sure hope i will find it out soon. i think i may have came close to it.. ;)
