no matter what i do.. all i think about is u.. even when i'm with my boo, u know i'm crazy over u..that dilemma? oh, no.. no..
have a job interview in a few hours.. that's what
this is about. about staying, or leaving... *sigh*
as u all know, i'm finally graduating! i've been waiting this moment like, FOREVER! coz i can't
wait to go back and leave this place, which, i call "
hell", once upon a time...
but now that i'm actually finished, and CAN go back anytime, i hesitate. there's something inside me asking to stay. my bet is on the things i've been doing lately, the people i know.. u know, with the dance circle n stuffs. don't get me wrong, that doesn't mean i like malaysia any less. i miss all the people, n i want to go back, i DO, but maybe not NOW? ah, i don't know..
people in malaysia mostly asking me to go back. ah, how i'm touched when they say they miss me, coz i've missed them too. but i'm also touched when the japanese around me is trying their best too, to make me stay. working in japan
does sound good, financial wise, and sometimes i think i need that, coz there's a moment where i think i'm a disappointment to my family. again,
financial wise. but, what bothers me is,
will it make me happy? that, i don't know. sucks not knowing the future, i know. n that, just makes me wish to have a Peter Petrelli around. lol.
i'm always not good at making decisions... hope that i'll make the right one, this time around. but i won't be holding my breath if i were u.. hehe. so somebody,
anybody, HEL~PPPP!!
