a computer engineering graduate in denial. ♪♪♪
in love with Mizushima Hiro. (still couldn't accept the fact that he's married. *cries*) ♪♪♪
loves anything that has to do with fashion, but hates that she doesn't have enough money
to own EVERY latest fashion, or a sewing talent for that matter. ♪♪♪
sometimes wonders why men are the way they are. :p ♪♪♪
wished she could give those skinny-but-always-think-they're-fat Japanese girls a bitch slap. ♪♪♪
loves all her close buddies to bits. ♪♪♪
an ordinary girl who wants to be extraordinary. And, a beautiful one too. ;)
I'm no devil; but don't mistake me as an angel. :D
If you think you know me, err.. just think again. I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
"I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing too much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing too much, Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing too much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing too much "
while listening to the song, i wonder.. am i doing too much myself?? or do i expect too much out of someone?
but i don't think that i expect something more than what i know people can do. ok, maybe i don't expect something more than what i know I can do. but then again, if i can do it, why can't others? is that wrong? for e.g., i don't expect my loved ones to call me every single day eventho i do. until i'm out of credit, that is. or i don't expect them to come fly here when i'm in need. tho i did that too. unless i'm totally broke which, there's nothing much i can do. but c'mon...! not even a single sms? at least do something that won't make me feel like i'm only needed when u have a problem. :(
expensive. that's the common reason for not doing so. so i've been told. BULL. do u think i don't spend a lot for u? it takes lesser for u to sms me than me sms-ing u. n that's the fact! and the malay proverb 'nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih' was not made for nothing. *sigh*
i'm not here to ungkit the things i've done for u, but don't u think about how i feel? i was there when u needed me, i always try my best to be there. but when i needed someone, anyone.. and no one came to the rescue, i feel like shit. about u and bout myself. about u, for being such a fake, and about me for being so naive and always try to make u feel better eventho at that moment i was having a bad day/time myself.
