Tuesday, January 30, 2007Y

// single and fabulous

in life, certain events come so rarely that when they do, special attention must be paid. and that's like halley's comet, solar eclipses, getting that 2nd latte for free, and one night at a salsa club. and single girlfriends might all found themselves without a relationship to chat at the exact same time.

so here's to us, without men.

"enjoy knowing men but not expecting them to fill u up". so i've heard.

being single is fabulous to some women. i have to agree. no pain in the ass. no burden to carry. no emotionally abused. n obviously no more need to spend thousands of dollars for them who proves that they r not worth it -- u can just spend all of it for urself from now on.

and, i can bring my single and fabulous ass home any time i want! *grins*

a glamorous city, say, NY offers a sea of single n fabulous things for the fabulous n singles to do.
being single n fabulous also freeze-up on weekends. saturday usually spent browsing with him, r left to more practical things like power walking with ur single n fabulous girlfriends.

single was fun at 20. but will it still be fun going all night club hopping at 40? well, i think it depends.. if they r just dressing like old sluts prolly waiting for a heart-attack but pretended to be 20, then fuck them. exclamation point.

but are singles filling their lives with an endless parade of decoys n distractions to avoid the pains n facts that they r completely alone?

suddenly the tot of how people would fake anything (esp. in orgasm, so some of the westerns had said), came across my mind.

while women r certainly no strangers to faking it, we fake our hair color, cup size, hell we even fake fur. i cudn't help but wonder has fear of being alone suddenly raised the bar on faking? are we faking more than orgasms? are we faking entire relationships? is it better to "fake it" than be alone?

like, if u n ur bf are compatible, except for one thing -- he likes u thin n blonde, wud u go for it? even the fact is, that u hate it? bcoz u don't wanna be alone?

or how about when u think ur wife's an idiot. n every day with her is like a trip to that idiot island? i'm sure certain guys won't tell that to the woman they love (well, IF u say u love her), coz u r pretty sure she'll leave u. (but still, some guys will use that against us when he's the one who wanna leave, don't u think?)

as i walked home, i cudn't help but wonder, when did being alone become the modern-day equivalent of being a leper? will restaurants soon be divided up into sections -- smoking/non-smoking, single/non-single?

then i had a frightening thought.
maybe i was the one who's faking it. all of these years, faking to myself that i was happy being single.
i decided i wasn't gonna let a magazine or my frens or the sergeant general stop me for being who i was. single n fabulous, exclamation point!

at another moment, a fren of mine was waiting for her date at her favourite romantic restaurant. at 1st she thought she had the wrong time. but when he still wasnt there 20 mins later, she called her machine -- no msgs.

she hadn't expect to be caught up in public alone -- without a book, a project or any of her dining out alone armor. she had nothing to do but sit n wait for him. by now, she knew that he was never going to show up. he was one of those man who fake the future to get what he wanted in the present. she felt exposed, vulnerable, like a fool.

sometimes we just can't believe that we'd fell for some guy's lie. but then, soon we'll realize, no matter how much it hurts, sometimes it's better to be alone. than "fake it".

i looked at myself in the mirror. what had i been so afraid of all week? i was still young, still desirable, i wud never wind up alone.
so i decided, instead of running away from the idea of a life alone, i better sit down n take that fear to lunch. so, i sat there. n had a glass of sparkling water. alone -- no books, no men, no frens, no armor, no faking.

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Monday, January 29, 2007Y

// see, i'm not a psycho, u moron!

You're Not Exactly Psycho...

But it's pretty obvious that a small part of you isn't over your ex yet.
It's time to give yourself some space from him - being friends is not going to work right now.
So stay away from your ex for now... before he turns you into a psycho!

Are You a Psycho Ex?

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// i'm.a.city.girl

yes i am! hehehe. (not u, bitch!)

You are a City Girl!

Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl.
You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion.
And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun.
Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

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// get a good night sleep

Top 10 Foods for a Good Night's Sleep
Posted Tue, Jan 23, 2007, 6:32 pm PST

What is the secret to getting a solid 7 to 8 hours of sleep? Head for the kitchen and enjoy one or two of these 10 foods. They relax tense muscles, quiet buzzing minds, and/or get calming, sleep-inducing hormones - serotonin and melatonin - flowing. Yawning yet?

Bananas. They're practically a sleeping pill in a peel. In addition to a bit of soothing melatonin and serotonin, bananas contain magnesium, a muscle relaxant.

Chamomile tea. The reason chamomile is such a staple of bedtime tea blends is its mild sedating effect - it's the perfect natural antidote for restless minds/bodies.

Warm milk. It's not a myth. Milk has some tryptophan - an amino acid that has a sedative - like effect - and calcium, which helps the brain use tryptophan. Plus there's the psychological throw-back to infancy, when a warm bottle meant "relax, everything's fine."

Honey. Drizzle a little in your warm milk or herb tea. Lots of sugar is stimulating, but a little glucose tells your brain to turn off orexin, a recently discovered neurotransmitter that's linked to alertness.

Potatoes. A small baked spud won't overwhelm your GI tract, and it clears away acids that can interfere with yawn-inducing tryptophan. To up the soothing effects, mash it with warm milk.

Oatmeal. Oats are a rich source of sleep - inviting melatonin, and a small bowl of warm cereal with a splash of maple syrup is cozy - plus if you've got the munchies, it's filling too.

Almonds. A handful of these heart-healthy nuts can be snooze-inducing, as they contain both tryptophan and a nice dose of muscle-relaxing magnesium.

Flaxseeds. When life goes awry and feeling down is keeping you up, try sprinkling 2 tablespoons of these healthy little seeds on your bedtime oatmeal. They're rich in omega-3 fatty acids, a natural mood lifter.

Whole-wheat bread. A slice of toast with your tea and honey will release insulin, which helps tryptophan get to your brain, where it's converted to serotonin and quietly murmurs "time to sleep."

Turkey. It's the most famous source of tryptophan, credited with all those Thanksgiving naps. But that's actually modern folklore. Tryptophan works when your stomach's basically empty, not overstuffed, and when there are some carbs around, not tons of protein. But put a lean slice or two on some whole-wheat bread mid-evening, and you've got one of the best sleep inducers in your kitchen.

What if none of these foods help you get your zzz's? Check out your sleep habits with this quick RealAge test to find out what?s keeping you up at night. http://www.realage.com/health_guides/RLS/intro.aspx

For an extra treat, here's the ultimate sleep-inducing snack...

Lullaby Muffins
Makes 12 low-fat muffins
Between the bananas, the whole wheat, and the honeyed touch of sweetness, these muffins are practically an edible lullaby.
· 2 cups whole-wheat pastry flour
· 1/2 teaspoon salt
· 1 tablespoon baking powder
· 2 large, very ripe bananas
· 1/3 cup applesauce
· 1/4 cup honey
· 1/2 cup milk or soymilk

Preheat oven to 350F. In a large bowl, combine the flour (make sure it's whole-wheat pastry flour or you'll produce golf balls, not muffins), salt, and baking powder. In a blender, puree the bananas; add the applesauce, honey, and milk. Blend well. Pour the banana mixture into the dry ingredients and stir until just moistened. Line muffin tins with paper muffin cups, pour in batter, and bake 30 minutes or until tops are lightly brown and slightly springy.

Nutrition Facts
Per serving: 119 calories; 1g fat; 2.5g protein; 27g carbohydrates; 10g sugars; 133mg sodium; 3g fiber; 35mg magnesium

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// math trick

here a video that u might find interesting.. (i found it while i was preparing to go to class. hehe)

hmm..will it work with ANY multiplications? why don't u try it urself? (:

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Saturday, January 27, 2007Y

// ...bcoz it's broken.

since my australian fren, melissa, went back home for xmas, we haven't meet each other even after she came back to kagoshima. that's like what? a month? tho we had try to hang out, or have some coffee together, still, things changed at the last minute. but at last, yesterday, we managed to meet-up at the usual lepak place, kusa no hana (yoko-san's), and finally she had the chance to look at my chicky2 pox face. haha. n i got to see the change to her hair as well. nice!

anyways, she gave me the gift that she bought in aussie n to my surprise, it's a book called "It's called a breakup because it's broken". (wah, perli.. =p) oh my, i just read a few articles from the book at Yahoo! featured news the other day, seriously! and now, i have the whole book! surprise, surprise..! lol.

i read a few lines while lepak-ing at kusa no hana. i know whatever the book says was true, just like what everybody has been saying to me, but i guess my brain (or maybe the main problem is actually my heart), just cudn't accept the naked truth. yet. the truth hurts, huh? but it's even more hurting coz i've been lied to all along. *sigh*

exams r coming next week n hell i haven't even prepared! at all! (geez, like that's anything new.) maybe the eagerness that i had to go back home was somehow gone *poof!* and so are the the urge of doing well in exams.. God, how can i become such a screw-up? *cries*

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Friday, January 26, 2007Y

// take.me.out.to.the.ballgame

adapted from SATC

when u live on a tiny island, the odds of bumping into the one who broke ur heart r incredibly high. the odds of bumping into him when u look like shit, r even higher. after a break-up, certain streets, locations, even times of day r off limits. the city becomes a deserted battlefield loaded with emotional landmines. u have to be very careful with where u step. or u cud be blown to pieces.

"it takes half the total time u went out with someone to get over them." - Charlotte (well, i took more than the total time. still. *sigh*)

while my fren was busy talking bout her ballgame, i cudn't help but wonder bout my own -- well, in MY case -- 6 yrs in malaysia (counted after i had my puberty. lol), 4 yrs in japan, countless dates, 2 not-so-real relationships, and ONE serious -- all ending in breakup.
if i were a ball player, i'll be batting err.. whatever really bat is. u know what the odds of catching a foul ball r? i didn't. but i cudn't help but wonder if they were any higher than finding a relationship that wud last.

as i was thinking about the new yankee, i began to worry about the ramifications of my day. were we supposed to get over an ex in a slow painful way? or shud we just ignore the bad feeling and throw urself in the game?
in a world where leaving each other seems to be getting more n more frequent, what r the break-up rules?

guy A: whatever u do, man, don't cry.. coz if u do get back together again, then like, u r the guy that cried. *laughing*

woman B: don't call or see him till 3 months has passed. that's how long it takes to lose the weight u put on when u were breaking up.

"give her whatever she wants. but don't sign a motherfucking thing", says guy C.

"change ur name, change ur phone number, change ur job, they're all bumps." - woman D

while i was putting on my necklace, i thought i've destroyed all the evidence. but there it was -- we'd taken it with a disposable camera before it ever come to me that we can be disposable as well.
it was then n there, i created my own very 1st breakup rule : destroy all pictures where he looks sexy. n u look happy.

when u r on a date (or a rebound), breakup rule no.2: lie. it's a lot easier than admitting that's y u invited the new yankee. n, y u max out ur credit card to buy the new dress.

sometimes we find ourself just can't stop talking bout the other sex. it is always have to be about them? *sigh*

breakup rule no.3: until emotionally stabilized, enter NO stores.

(n just when Miranda decided that she was the only woman that has a real perspective on men, there he was, mr. asshole, the former love of her life, walking hand-in-hand with the woman he left her for.)

breakup rule no.4: never stop thinking about him even for a moment.
bcoz that's the moment he'll appear. as he made his way to the crowd, i felt calm. i had accomplished the perfect 1st meeting -- i look good, i felt good, n i was with the new yankee.

n finally,the most important breakup rule -- no matter who broke ur heart, or how long it takes to heal, u'll never get through it without ur frens. (this is so TRUE!)

well, i might see that there's a new shine, a new hope -- and better, too! *smiles*

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Thursday, January 25, 2007Y

// guy talk

sometimes i love reading the articles on Yahoo! featured topic. n today, i found this kinda interesting article that i just feel like posting it here. lol.

What His Last Relationship Says About Your Current One

Posted by David Zinczenko

on Mon, Jan 22, 2007, 9:05 am PST

Most guys, if they're smart, spend as much time discussing their previous relationships as kindergarteners spend talking about Congressional elections. Men like to stay mum in part because we tend toward one of two stances when it comes to our exes -- bragging, or whining. And neither is particularly attractive to our current squeeze. We're also quite aware of how much better your memory is than ours, and we're afraid that you'll remember every little factoid we divulge and one day, long after we've forgotten it, find a way to use it against us. ("Oh, of course you know how to get whipped cream out of upholstery, because that trashy ho sprayed Reddi-Wip all over your apartment back in '98 ... and there's still some of it in your refrigerator!"). While a woman won't, and shouldn't, know every little detail of a guy's previous relationships, she can learn some important things about her man (and where their relationship is headed) by tuning in to the Relationship History Channel. His program highlights:

If He Says She Was Crazy, It Means ... (ok, i'm really interested in knowing this one! hahaha)

He's still harboring intense feelings, and maybe a little guilt. By talking about her excessive stalking/nagging/obsession with Dr. Phil, he may be trying to show you that clearly there was something wrong with her, not him. But by putting her down so vehemently, it could mean he's trying to assuage some personal fear that he was somehow at fault. And even if she was a bunny boiler, the fact is that dysfunctional relationships generally rely on both parties being simultaneously, if not equally, unhinged. It may simply be that he isn't fully ready to concentrate on the present until those extreme feelings simmer down, and recede further into the past.

If He Hopes Her Relationships Fail, It Means ...

His brain's frontal lobes-which control obsessive thinking, worry, and inflexible behavior-are in overdrive. When this happens, the brain begins to work inefficiently, affecting moods and temper, which is how this type of thinking spirals not only into "If I can't have her, no one can," but equally dangerously, "I'll show her by dating somebody (anybody) else." If he wants his ex to fail, and himself to be seen as a winner, he may be exploring a relationship with you out of jealousy or revenge or something else. But subconsciously, he's also hoping that her failure may make her realize the error in dumping him, clearing the way for a reconciliation. In that case, you may be the tool he's using to make himself look more desirable. Sometimes being another person's plaything can be fun--but not if you're looking for a meaningful future.

If He Tells You Details About the Breakup, It Means ...

Under the guise of a story ("she did this, I did that, it didn't work out"), he's trying to offer up his personal product details-specifically, the things that he has adverse reactions to, whether it's not getting enough space, or lovin', or whatever. He'll fess up some of his faults, but he's also sending signals about who he's ultimately compatible with-and, more important, who he's not. Listen closely--he's giving you the instruction manual.

If He Praises Her, It Means ...

It may seem that any guy who compliments his ex to his new girlfriend has a one-way ticket on the train to Not Getting Any Tonight. But as long as he doesn't go on and on about all of his ex's remarkable qualities, his praise may very well be the sign that he's mature enough and ready for your relationship. What you're looking for is something on the order of: "She was and is a wonderful woman, and I wish her well, but we didn't offer each other the things we needed, which is why I'm with someone who does." After all, that's what you expect from a good man-that he's good to women.

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Wednesday, January 24, 2007Y

// hana.yori.dango

as translated, "boys over flowers". heh.

n that one in the black box, is my one and only, HANAZAWA RUI!!!! (played by Oguri Shun) *drools (like, a gazillion times!)*
he is oh-so-sweet! n i've seen him in this one japanese show too, as a guest, n he's not that much different from his character in Hana yori Dango -- sweet n shy. *melts*

well, actually.. some didn't let me watch this drama since Hanazawa Rui will remind me soooo much of someone -- u-know-who. *sob sob*
but he is just sooo cute for me to look another way! chewah! nvm. screw that so-called look-alike ass. he's not even half of this Hanazawa Rui! *pats self*

next, is all-u-can-get-by-googling-hanazawa-rui picturessssssssss!! hehehe.

isn't he gorgeousssssss?? *drop dead*

oh now i just can't get enuff of him. geez.

come onnnnnn... i know u agree with me now.. *lol*

yes, i have nothing to do than cut-n-paste-ing Shun's pics. crazy, i know! hehe.

note: and the kadaians (kagoshima university msian students) have our very own "Hana yori Dango" as well! *giggles*

(oh, pardon me, everyone... i was in the state of "chicky chicky pox". damnn~)

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007Y

// sleepy sorrow

my sleeping cycle is crazily upside-down lately. i even had to stay awake the whole night coz i didn't want to wake up late the next day n miss class. hell yea, u know how i can't miss ANY of it now. sigh.

so, as i always do when i'm hell bored, i stuffed my computer with lots n lots n LOTS of tv shows. n since my favourite tv series was on a break before this, i found myself able to watch all these movies i didn't even know about! hehehe. andddd... the number of tv shows that i download now has come to (wait, i have to count.. 2..4..) 14!! woohoo~! (well, not that it matters anyways. LOL)

SUN: Desperate Housewives
MON: Prison Break
TUE: House MD
Standoff
WED: One Tree Hill
ANTM
Lost
Day Break
The 9
THU: Supernatural
Ugly Betty
The O.C
Grey's Anatomy
Smallville

n Friday, i'm watching Japanese Hana yori Dango 2. n drool over my Hanazawa Ruiiiiiiiiiii!!! lalalala~ *blushed*

plus, lately, i've been downloading That '70s show. damn, this show is good or what?! *rotf* i should have watched it a long time ago. especially during my "breakdown" season. hahaha.

p/s: hey, if u have any other series that's good to watch, do tell.

(i have the sudden feeling of deja-vu when writing this. hmm.. (oh no! did i write the same thing over n over?? how screwed is that?! sigh.))

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Monday, January 22, 2007Y

// keanu

oh my! oh my! oh myyyyyyyyyyy!

how could i forget to post this? my friend has a new bf, n he looks like Keanu Reeves!! seriously! n she's my gedikness-forever babe. damn, now i'm jealous! hahaha.

we are like, always chat on msn, right.. n of course her bf's name's been popping out every now n then. but then this one day i remembered that she hasn't showed me his pic. so i went like, "hey, when r u gonna show me ur bf's pic?"

she: oh, hold on (searching thru her comp, i guess)
me: oh-kay.

(she changed her display pic. that's Keanu Reeves, i tot.)

me: blah laaaaaaa!! y the hell do u put this pic?
she: huh? that's him, my bf.
me: WHAT?! but that's like, keanu..
she: i know, right? *giggles*
me: fuck u. arghhhh!! i'm jealous. lol.
she: haha.

yea.. u can see that i was obviously shocked there.. hehe. but i'm happy for her. gedik, u know i ammmm!!! *love love*

p/s: can i have a James Lafferty, please???? or maybe a Jared Padalecki. *grins*

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// confusion

ok. what's with all these people? sometimes i just dunno why i'm surrounded with jerks! oh-my-God!

fine. i have my own ups n downs and maybe i might act a lil emotional during that down times. but gimme a break, will ya? scorpios are sensitive! lol. but at least i'm not the one who's being the hypocrite. if i ever have any wrong-doings to u, why can't u just confront it to my face? i tot that's what FRIENDS are suppose to do..? but u chose to ignore ur so-called friendship. know what? it's clear now that ur definition of "friendship" is bullshit! like, totally! duhh~

and the worst part is, i even tried to clear things out. i asked, n even messaged u n all (not just ONCE -- unfortunately), coz i want to cherish the friendship that we had (guess i misunderstood what friends meant to u, huh?).. but NAH! u didn't even care to reply. whatever.

funny thing, u are still friends with that person u once acknowledge as a jackass. n those people around that jackass. now that's what i call a hypocrite. God, i've been keeping this for months! so now it's time to just let it out -- it's taking my brain n heart's space!

God, just banish all of them!! amen.

p/s: oh i just wish i know how to express this thing "skillfully". heh.

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