// tear-shedding scene.huhu
was bored the whole day so i watched the series Lost season 2. and i'd like to quote a scene from episode 19.Scene: Bernard and Rose having a coffee in a luxurious restaurant with a beautiful scenery. people playing violin came over to their table. Bernard went to Rose n bent on his knees.Bernard: Rose, i've been a bachelor for 56 years, n then i met u, n we just fell into this rythm like we've known each other forever. i've always dream of finding someone like u but i've given up hope that i would..Rose: Bernard...Bernard: i know.. i know.. it's.. crazy.. we just met.. 5 months ago.. but 5 months is long enough because i knew it after 5 minutes.. Rose.. i love u.. will u marry me??awww... it was sooo sweet! and hearing Bernard's dialogue, i kinda agreed.. it's not about how long.. it's about how deep u've got. sometimes i hate it when people say "lucky it's still not that long" etc. i know, yea, technically, the longer u've got, the deeper it will be.. but that doesn't mean Bernard n Rose who have been together for only 5 months might not have feelings the way those who've been for years... rite? coz it's all about ur heart, ur feelings, nothing to do with the time. well, at least that's what i think.this episode wasn't really that emotional actually..just a few scenes of Bernard and Rose that is.hehe.p/s: just another 10 more days n i will be sticking myself in front of my PC every week! OTH alllllllll the way!! Nathan baby, wait for me! =)
// heeee~!
the clock is ticking. can't wait for the midnight. but today's the last day i'm giving myself a time off. oh no! it's ok. anything for iced chocolate. teeheehee.i shall wait for another 13 hrs and 45 mins to make that call. then i'll scream "HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY!!!!" to none other than...??? hehe. (nak cair2 kejap.. bwahahaha! bapak takleh blah!)pray for me that i'll make it. i.c., u better not busy aa tonite! =p God, please!p/s: butterflies all over my stomach?? (not the point? oh, ok.)
Saturday, September 16, 2006Y
// satu pokok bukit.
lol. the title.. *rotfl*
i'm all psyched now! woohoo! less than 2 weeks, and i shall watch the premiere for One Tree Hill (OTH) season 4!! yeayyyyyyyy!! *doing curtsies*
i've read some of the spoilers and it made me even more eager to watch!! grrr. can't wait to kiss Nathan on my computer screen. ok, eewwww. lol.
these are some of the spoilers that i could "steal". heh.
Epi 401 - The Same Deep Water As You - 09.27.06
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In a shocking season opener, the aftermath of the post-wedding car accident unfolds. While Haley (Bethany Joy Galeotti) is deeply affected by Nathan's (James Lafferty) attempt to rescue Cooper (guest star Michael Trucco) and Rachel (Danneel Harris), Brooke (Sophia Bush) confronts Lucas (Chad Michael Murray) with her true feelings, and Peyton (Hilarie Burton) makes a startling discovery. Pressured by the fact that someone might know he killed his brother, Dan (Paul Johansson) assaults Deb (Barbara Alyn Woods). Lee Norris, Moira Kelly, and Barry Corbin also star in this episode.
Epi 402 - Things I Forgot at Birth - 10.04.06
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A new character, Derek, will come into town. A charismatic, handsome and likable guy whose self-confidence can sometimes be misinterpreted as cocky. Derek can be charming and relaxed but can be equally intense and driven to get what he wants. Will he rip Brooke away from Lucas?
note: i heard that uncle Coop died in the accident.. ohhh nooooo!! he's one hell fucking cool uncle!! i wish i have an uncle like that.. sob sob. screw Rachel! teehee.omg! Nathan is soooo damn fucking sexayyyyyyyy!!! *melts* i loooooooooooooooooovvvvveeee!! if only there's someone like him in malaysia.. haha,yeah.. AS IF!
// duhh.. whatever.
currently i've been called a psycho by u-know-who. n ohh, they said i like to take advantage on people, making up stories n err.. looking for sympathy. n apparently, i'm not "hot" enuff to be backstabbed by someone. whatever.u know what? it's not like you were the one who always been backstabbed, so what do u know? people who've known me for ages, NEVER ever said anything like that, so who are u to judge me?! u can go tell the world for all i care, coz u were the one who didn't keep ur promise, who didn't know how to appreciate a frenship etc. (do u want me to keep on going? coz the list is still long, u know.) then again, dun blame me if one day it's already too late for u to realise all this coz i've warned u b4, dun mess with the wrong person! *grins*
Friday, September 15, 2006Y
// as it passes...
been making my own hols 'til the end of the week. will be scold next week, for sure. lol. but i really need my own time off. since the plan of 'recovering' didn't go quite well. the presentation next week, n the preparation (damn it) -- ahh, put it aside! i'm officially in major big trouble, i realised.was about to get back on my two feet, but then again, something pulled me back down. damn, i've never been tested this hard before, i told myself. this is my final year, isn't that enuff as a test? guess not. *sigh*soooo... as i need some time off, which, is just two days left, haf to get back up -- fast! but how? the only thing that can make my day now -- iced chocolate! hehe. yess, that iced chocolate (some might know what iced chocolate really means. heh.). who always made my day with his sms or voice (even if that means for a minute!). n yeah, his eyesssssssss.. *drools* ohh how i miss iced chocolate (i.c.) now. didn't sms or call i.c. yesterday, yet feels like forever! sounds gedik, i know. lol. wish i didn't have to come back to japan this soon. then i'll be able to celebrate i.c.'s bday together. and berbuka puasa. woot woot!ok. what's the point of writing this again?? ohh. right. coz everything seems not on my side, i mean, anything, n everything i said won't even be counted, so i might just sit back n enjoy that iced chocolate, eh? haha. so not the point. hmm.. u can think n say whatever u want, i dun wanna care. i was just started to be enjoying life, to be free again, but u blew it -- coz u tot i wud give a damn of what u did, or who u do it with. puh-lease! i don't. not anymore. so please, don't blow it -- again.let's hope for a better life for all of us.
p/s: i miss iced chocolate!!! teeheehee.-- i didn't know the actual point of what i wanna write in the first place. lol. maybe some ideas on how to get back up within this 2 days other than thinking bout iced chocolate?? haha. ok, i need to stop! toodles~ =) --
// salahkah aku...
"SALAHKAH AKU TERLALU MENCINTAIMU"Ku tatap dua bola matamu Tersirat apa yang kan terjadi Kau ingin pergi dariku Meninggalkan semua kenangan Menutup lembaran cerita Oh sayangku, aku tak mau Ku tahu semua akan berakhir Tapi ku tak rela lepaskanmu Kau tanya mengapa aku tak ingin pergi darimu Dan mulutku diam membisu
Salahkah bila diriku terlalu mencintaimu Jangan tanyakan mengapa karena aku tak tahu Aku pun tak ingin bila kau pergi tinggalkan aku Masihkah ada hasratmu 'tuk mencintaiku lagi Apakah harus aku lakukan 'Tuk menarik perhatianmu lagi Walaupun harus mengiba Agar kau tetap di sini Lihat aku duhai sayangku
Thursday, September 14, 2006Y
// accusation
i just found out that we can use someone's email address for myspace without the owner knowing it. oh, how did i know? coz recently i've been accused of having a fake account which i have no knowledge of! *sigh*maybe i should say thanks to the person who gave me the info, but since he accused me without even hearing my explanation, so there's a no thanks to it. great.n i think most of the people know there was a major power outage in the U.S b4.. hence, some of the emails can't be logged in. a few of my frens haf problems logging in.even i, myself have trouble to log in to my yahoo account (fyi, it's been more than 2 months now), even my yahoo messenger can't be used anymore. i was so pissed, coz there's a lot of documents n lots of contacts that i saved inside that email, but did i accused anyone of hacking it? hell NO! even there's a possibility of someone doing it tho.and what is this shit saying i lied bout losing my cell phone? i really did lose it, u (@^*^!%^)!!! u haf no idea how terrible i felt when i lose the phone. n u r accusing me of lying? what kind of an idiot would go thru all the trouble searching for frens' number if she's just lying about it? duhh~u can say whatever u want. i've been thru a lot to keep my relationship with the others eventho it hurts like hell. but this is what i get in return? good. u make it easier for me to forget everyone. n to the backstabber, u know who u r, u should ask n confirm to me first before stabbing at the back. wow, u sure are something. one time u were talking bad bout them, n now u become frens? ha-ha.n to the bitch who's been using my email add,just fuck off! u n ur fren can go hack someone else's email all u want. just not mine! get that?! u've caused me too much trouble already. well,u always do. get out from my life!
// yaya-ness!
this post is dedicated to one of my -ness family.. yaya-ness!! teehee.gosh. yaya-ness! u know what? sometimes i envy u. i wish i can handle things more profesionally. more positive. n with more great personality. n not let myself be the psycho i've become. it sure caused me a lot of trouble by the way i handle things now. how i wish i cud turn all back. *cries*but sometimes i wonder, how did i become this sick? since when did i let myself become something that i hate -- a psycho? seems like everything i do doesn't do anyone any good -- including me. whyyyyyyyyyy??gimme a piece of advice. ohh help me pleaseeeee!! help me to build a great personality. i sure hate this me i've become. sob sob.
// dot dot dot
this year's summer hols was a disaster! y? becoz i haf nothing but problems! *sigh*with u-know-who and about u-know-what, then probs with other people caused by u-know-who n other stuffs, lost my hp AND my yen, yada yada yada... wasn't it just great?and when my life started to get better, things got worse. i've been accused of lying bout my hp. wtf? i really did lose my hp for crying out loud! n been accused of other things too. why can't life just makes it easier for me? please, for once! at least once. please get all these off of me. n to u-know-who, i dun fucking care bout her. u both can do whatever u want. go kiss here n there like no one's business. but dun u dare accused me coz u know n i know n i guess she knows that i'm NOT the only one who hate her. others do too.
