a computer engineering graduate in denial. ♪♪♪
in love with Mizushima Hiro. (still couldn't accept the fact that he's married. *cries*) ♪♪♪
loves anything that has to do with fashion, but hates that she doesn't have enough money
to own EVERY latest fashion, or a sewing talent for that matter. ♪♪♪
sometimes wonders why men are the way they are. :p ♪♪♪
wished she could give those skinny-but-always-think-they're-fat Japanese girls a bitch slap. ♪♪♪
loves all her close buddies to bits. ♪♪♪
an ordinary girl who wants to be extraordinary. And, a beautiful one too. ;)
I'm no devil; but don't mistake me as an angel. :D
If you think you know me, err.. just think again. I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
SOOOOOOO MUCH. it's all over. everything. i've tried.. so hard. but still useless. i feel like dying -- seriously. just let me die, better than i'm like what i am now -- a walking corpse. the tears i shed for the whole week is meaningless. at least for me.
p/s: yaya-ness, i'm sorry. i'll try to do the tag thing once i get back my mood ok? so sorry...
haih. i'm so bored. how bored? damnnnnn bored. i've watched every single thing that i've downloaded. all in this week! see how bored i am? now u know.
ok. what am i suppose to do? hmm.. let's see.. ohh. we can bitch about the bitches. there's a lot to tell about, i assure u. but nahh, we r more civilized than them, aren't we? ;) or we cud talk bout our opinions bout every ANTM winners. haha. yess, u can see that i'm obsessed to it. *grins* ohh. just so u know, i like Kahlen more than Naima actually. yea, Naima has exotic looks, but her personality seems like it's all made up (at first i like her when i just see the few last episodes in msia, but when i've seen all the episodes, my mind changed.), u know.. like 'plastics'. well, i dunno..
anyways, let's just play wiff colors, shall we? what do you wanna say in times like this? (this is me playing.haha.)i dunno what is there to talk about. i just wanna playwith thesecolors, actually! teehee. (ok, that's more tiring than i tot.)
i've never been sooo happy or sooo sad bout celebrities' wedding.
but this, i dunno.. there's a lil sadness that i feel when i heard bout their divorce. Malaysian celebrities, Erra Fazira n Yusry KRU, both whom i like so much, once made me so eager bout their wedding updates. yess, it's all over the news. after married for 3 years, now they r divorced. *sob sob*
to anyone who doesn't know bout the news, u can read from local newspapers or go to this article .
p/s: the great fairy tale ends... *speechless* :'(
i hear this phrase a lot. but i actually dunno the real meaning of it, seriously. i mean, what does make u the girl/boy next door? someone, EXPLAIN!! is the girl/boy next door someone who looks all girly2 (puh-leasee!) or maybe oh-so-macho man? totally clueless, man! where does this "term" even come from? teehee.
my computer sucks today (big time). i actually wasted 2 pieces of CDs in order to burn ANTM -- damnit!
dis morning, i was thinking whether shud i go to class or continue sleeping.. haha. but since i already have a bad attendance record, i have no other choice than just go n show my nerdy-face to the lecturer. teehee. damn, i was sleepy for having not enuff sleep last night. *sigh*
n now, again, am thinking of going to my Latin dance class, or not. i've been having this -- u know, eager to go at one time, but the minute u wanted to start preparing urself to go, u become soooo damn lazy like u never decided to go in the first place, syndrome. lol. n for only-God-knows-how-many times, i end up in my messy lil room (again bout the messiness :p), instead of just going out -- thinking that i would go the next week. and of course u know what happened the next week, n the next, n the next... geez. when did i turn out to be someone who's lazy in EVERY thing? -- even dancing?!! *strangle myself*
ohh, guess what? having a cold today -- thanks to my bf. haha. u guys must be wondering how the hell did he affected me since we r so far away, rite? that's the thing. i can't figure out myself. but EVERY time he's sick, i'm gonna b sick the next day, or maybe 2 days after dat -- seriously. so the other day, we were talking on the phone n he told me dat he has a fever, n today i'm having a flu. great. hmm... maybe i shud make a research bout bacteria travels thru phone line,huh? -- nonsense? i know.
i still cudn't figure out y the hell i always wake up early when there's no class, and damn late when i haf one! haha. this week is the wake-up-early-week for me (since saturday, believe it or not.). slept around 2 a.m. n woke up at 10 a.m. no class today, as usual wednesdays.
there's a show called iitomo in Japan every weekdays at 12. watching iitomo has been my daily routine besides checking myspace n ohh, waiting for the downloads to finish. lol.
basically, nothing much happens today -- not yet. teehee. 'ashita mite kuru ka?' 'iitomo!' (are you gonna watch it tmrw? of course! -- haha. not realllly good at translating that. but the meaning is there.)
yet another lazy day. so i keep downloading all these tv shows that i've been wanting to watch. grey's anatomy, supernatural, nada.. nada..
ohh. i always have this oldddd extra tv which i got from my previous senior. it's damnnnn heavy, seriously. even the males couldn't carry it alone. so it's been on top of my refrigerator for like 2 years, coz u know, who wants an old, heaaaaavy tv,rite? (do u? NO? yeah, that's what i tot.)
so then, came this junior of mine, freshman this year. n he asked for the tv (duhh, i didn't even fucking know him when he 1st asked for it. obviously people talk behind ur back. haha.). teehee. alas, today he called n said he'll be coming to pick it up. i was like what? today? like right now? (urghhh~) maybe just a few -- only my close frens, know how horrifyingly mess my room can be. but hey, i once heard sayings "the prettier the girl is, the messier their car/room can be." ohh, i'm not saying that i'm pretty (that is soooo not the point here. lol.), but at least there's something that cud make a crazy-n-lazy-ass me feel a bitttt better. for not cleaning up the mess, that is.. *rotf*
(oh, cut the crap!) so ME, obviously didn't want anyone to come inside n see the hideous room that i live in (wait. y i even tell u this? clearly u'll know just from reading my blog -- stupidity. :p), carried the tv to the door. yes, the same old, heaaaaavy tv i was telling u about. uhuh. i rather carried it MYSELF than exposing my house! (ok, maybe i exaggerate a lillll bit. lol.)
they came after i waited for nearly 1/2 n hour, n yeah, now the tv is finally gone, i can totally see my fridge! haha. God, i was sweating like hell when carrying that damn tv. only God knows how i nearly cried, afraid that i wasn't able to pull it off. i lay down after that, feeling sweaty n tired, n that's when i realised something -- bruises all over my tighs! oh-my-God! i just cudn't believe my eyes.. it's like everywhere! ok, that's a lie. but maybe 5 at my right, n 2 at my left. geez. that's what a think-u-r-a-superwoman show-off will do to u. that's a lessonnnnnn!!! haha.
earlier today, i spilled boiled water on my hands while i was opening the tap. great. jussssttt what i need, huh? someone with good luck, kiss me -- quick!! haha. an adaptation from "just my luck" movie (haven't watched it yet, tho.).
ok, i just realised i spend sooo many words on my room's condition while my objective was to tell about my so-called 'bad luck'. yeah, congratulations. *sarcastic voice*
(was meaning to post this like few days earlier, but this blogger was crazy n makes me go nuts! so haf to wait for today n post it with another one. *sigh*)
hahahaha..
ok.. u might want to puke first before u even read this! lol. what the hell with the title, huh? yaya-ness had invited me to join this blog like what? last month? but i was sooo freakin' lazy to even write one! n now, finally having the 'mood' to write something (ohh,that's because i haf totally lost any idea of what to do), this is the best topic i cud think of? ahhh.. whatever. :p
alrighty.. what's with the next top model anyway? ok. some of u know about the America's Next Top Model (ANTM) shows, rite? so yeah. i looooove that show as well. it is just because me, myself love to photograph n seeing those girls (and some of my frens in msia, too) doing their photoshoot, n how just plain gorgeoussss their photos are.. damn.. how envy i am! *pulling my hair off*
well.. lemme tell u a lil secret of mine.. i, actually have a dream of becoming a model too (ok.. u may rotfl now.). no, i'm fucking serious! haha. it might sound ridiculous (i know... i dun haf 'the' figure.. lol), but hey, a girl has to do what a girl has to do, rite? so i dream. hehe. but seriously, watching ANTM just put more spirit in me, to try these new things.. things i always wanted to do for myself, ya know? coz i always think that what i'm doing now (stranded here in such a boring place like Kagoshima, doing engineering..), is something that my parents want, what other people want.. coz they think it's the best for me (i don't doubt it tho.. coz education will always comes first,eh?). so, me.. being a good daughter (which is definitely sooo NOT true. haha.), decided to finish my study first. i mean at least go get a degree, amy! ;)
so.. uhuh.. despite all the 'rubbish' i just told u about (haha), all i'm saying is, it would really be great if i cud do like what those ANTM participants did, someday.. *crossing my fingers* or maybe, shud i just join AF5 instead?? hahaha.. ok,that's another story. lol.
